⋱㊗️ #トークアバウト 放送400回！⋰
呼んで頂きありがとうございました🎉 https://t.co/qAT0D2SOZ6 https://t.co/rsrMZrVxYc November 11, 2025

お祝いパーティー㊗️
#トークアバウト🎉

＼ ちょっと待ってください！
　　　まだお祝いしてほしいことが... ／

人生の・・改革が・・起きた？！
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#トークアバウト スタート📻

今夜の放送で
TALK ABOUT 400回目！！💐

皆様・・
番組を盛り上げていただき
ありがとうございます😭😭😭

今夜も沢山のメッセージを
お待ちしています🚀💫

#TBSラジオ #MAZZEL #KAIRYU
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櫻坂 #トークアバウト 放送中🌸

Q. 最後のライブにかける思いは？

🗣️#井上梨名
7年間の集大成を見せる！
かっこよさも可愛さも、たまに笑いも！
みんなに笑顔で来てほしい..！

🗣️#松田里奈
・・笑顔になれるかなぁぁ😭

＼ まっちゃん頼むよっ😉 ／

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#めておら と
お祝いパーティー㊗️
#トークアバウト🎉

まだまだお祝いしてほしい...!?!?

今まで2~3時間かかってた部屋の掃除を
30分で済ませることに成功🧹

物をグランドピアノに
隠してる!?!?🎹
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ボイスでも！
#トークアバウト🗣️

🔊前借りであるものを購入！
　何を買った？？

布団？毛布？
＼惜しいっっーーーーー！／
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みかちこんばんは~❕🌸

＃トークアバウト
記念すべき400回目 出演おめでとう🎉

ラジオならではの皆さんの掛け合い
がテンポよくて面白くって１時間半
あっという間でした~❕

一生懸命相槌うってて聞き上手な
みかちも可愛かったです *.🩷

会議中のゲームは程々に…❕ww

＃みかさ家
＃みかさくん November 11, 2025

生放送中の #トークアバウト🎙
㊗️まだまだお祝いしたいことが...

🗣️RN・あいら
『旅行が晴れましたー！！！』

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生放送中の #トークアバウト💫

☎高2・RN ぴこさん
【 ついに！ついに！
気になる人が出来ました！！ 】

"推し" と "恋愛的な好き" が
今までは区別できなかったけど...

"推し"から"気になる人"になった
キッカケが！

その名も...✏️筆箱事件🔎

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#トークアバウト
最近あった失敗を川柳に...！！

🗣️#めておら みかさくん
【 会議中・ゲームをしすぎて・ごめんなさい 】

🗣️心音・Lapis
＼ えーーーー!!!! ／
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最近、自分の作品を見るのがつらい。
I have slowly started to hate my own art.

Art is supposed to be about experimenting, discovering what you love and what you do not, and eventually shaping a style that feels like your own.

When I began making these photos a year ago, it was to express the things I carry inside. Those early pieces were raw feelings turned into images. I wanted to make photos I could cry into, and for a long time that is what I did. They were only for me to look at.

Then I began experimenting more. I introduced new colors, polished my technique, and chased the idea of creating pretty art. I pushed myself further by making assets and adding them into my photos.

There was progress. The images became more refined and visually appealing. I learned a lot. They looked beautiful.

But when I look at them, I feel nothing. I try to convince myself there is meaning or emotion, but deep down I know I am not connected to them. I do not even like looking at them after posting. I kept asking myself what went wrong. I thought I had already found my style.

For the past six months I have grown to dislike my own work, yet I kept creating, hoping that spark would return. It never did.

My art felt soulless.

So I stopped posting as often and tried to figure out what was wrong. I read, listened to artists, bought art books, anything to bring back that spark. None of it helped.

This week, after spending time with friends and talking to new people, I finally realized the truth.

I was focused only on making polished and beautiful images and forgot to pour myself into them. I kept repeating the same formula and drained myself without noticing. I convinced myself that was the right way.

I went back to my older pieces and really looked at them. That was what I should have continued. Experimenting is important, but I drifted too far from expressing who I am.

I love what I used to make. There was an uncanny, uneasy, unanswered feeling in those works. That is what I want to continue. And now, with everything I have learned, I feel like I can do it even better.

Thank you for reading this long message. This is mostly a note to myself, a moment to mark my new direction. If you read this far, thank you for listening to me talk about my struggles. As a small thank you, please send me a message. I made a very odd accessory to remember this moment and I would love to share it with you.

Beige

(artworks new -> old) November 11, 2025